Do You Live in the present or the future?

Do you live in the present or future, what a beautiful line it is, there are no such words to put it, the future filled with dreams that will never come true, and the present filled with sins and betrayal. What world do you live in? I live in the world of hate, hate and agony, praying one day that the darkness consumes me more than anything , i pray that it consumes all of me and change my personality, I dont want it anymore, i dont want anything, afterall i finally see it the light that never existed to begin with, im a fool nothing less and nothing else, i see no colors as i were today nor tomorrow all i can see is the pain i was left with, the pain of the stars....where did my star go where did it fly off to in this galaxy, all that i know is that it left me all alone, to face the hardship of reality. THIS IS NOT FAIR, CRUMBLING MY WORLD BECKONS, the wind that guided the trees stopped the hope of humans faded. Soon I will join them in this cruel fateful world, slowly and for surely, I can see it all, see that my me died, the me, is becoming more uglier by day. I see the fear.....of him..the fear that cries deep inside me hoping one day something will happen, I dont want to change, so i want to be saved, without actions no one can save. This ending never-land which i should have never been born...till day meets night, i shall shroud in this broken down cloud, and maybe one day once more and more....i can fulfill my life with a replacement.